Just talked to Aurora ..my little auie..She had to do this survey thingy and one of the questions was what is your favorite past time or whatever and my answer was the lesbian thing with leeroy at eclipse! Oh lord..good times good times. I have been really nostalgic lately but not in a depressing way..If that makes sense..I went to the park with my honey today and we went to he lake which was all the way back in the woods and down steep ass hills..my ass was in flip flops lmao! Go figure..So it was interesting..and  he held me so tightly..and I swear I died right there...

I'm soooooooo happy guys..

Oh My God! I love Justin lol!! He's so hot and fabulous! Oh man...I miss him..and EVEN THOUGH I've known him for like 5 years I totally ooooowe all this fabulous-ness to Sammy Jo! MWAH..sam your totally like my bestfriend I love you muches and im soooooooo glad we became friends..your truely one hell of a friend.

*Sam got hit my a pit bull in the nose...LMAO

These are just some of my madlib's....lol

One day while I was sex in the bedroom a pink cincinnati fell through the roof. It immediately jumped on the love seat and knocked over the greenhills. Then it ran out the door into the bathroom and kicking a dog off the couch. It then knocked a glass of vodka off the coffee table. After 17 minutes of chasing the cincinnati through the house I finally caught it and put it outside. It quickly climbed the nearest kitten.

One day while I was running in the kitchen a blue grandpa fell through the roof. It immediately jumped on the couch and knocked over the mom. Then it ran out the door into the bedroom and skipping a tree off the table. It then knocked a glass of bacardi off the coffee table. After 21 minutes of chasing the grandpa through the house I finally caught it and put it outside. It quickly climbed the nearest house.

Man..so yea I havent actually WRITTEN here in awhile..*sigh* so yea I talked to "the guy next door" today out on my porch..it went okay I suppose..He's a confusing guy man. LET ME TELL YOU! I really had quite the boring day. My step dad watched Madison and let me sleep for like 2 hours or so. So that was nice. I guess Im a little down again about my dad. Ive been thinking about him a lot lately. I mean how could you just flat out walk away from your own child!?!?!? And 17 years later still have NOO desire to talk to her?!?!?! I mean does he even wonder about me? I don't even know him and still somehow I feel as though I have failed him to. *sigh* *bigger sigh* *BIGGEST SIGH* jk lol ahhhh oh well I guess I'm gonna go watch lifetime..the best thing to do when your depressed lol......

        Boys Are DUMB

Yea so boys are stupid..but whats new? This boy is really really really confusing me for real!! Oh my God! One day he is all like flirty and outgoing and blah blah..you know how that goes. Then the next he is all "lets not talk and confuse the hell outta Mallory" Not cool. At all. So "boy" if your by any chance reading this and you truely know who you are and that I'm talking to you..Will you please just come out and tell me how ya feel!?!?  Then there's this fabulous ex whose all about I miss you yadda yadda we needa do something. I just needa see you. Need you too hold me. Yea ok well....whatever..

Do you ever wonder what happened to the little girl/boy that you used to be? So innocent and care free? So trusting and loving? You went through almost the exact same ol' routine everyday and yet you were happy with it. And then all of a sudden your 17 and you dont even know when it all got stolen away right form underneath you. All the trust and love is gone. All the carefree-ness is now overcome with stress and worry. The people who you thought would be with you untill the bitter end are now gone or slowly fading away and the people who are still there..might as well be total strangers because it seems like you barely know them at all anymore. Why? Why can't the world just accept people as they are and greet them, problems and all, with a smile and a hug,and a shoulder to lean on when needed? Do you think it's because most people really have no clue who they are at all...? Just a thought...

I miss my friends...the friends that could always make me smile and who always made me feel good and important...There all changing so much..And I feel like Im no longer one of the group...No matter what I'll always cherish the good times...There were all so many that made such a difference in my life and that really made an impact on me. The dumb things. The little things. The long talks at stupid hours of the night. *Never forget*